Worries

   Spent a couple of days with Mum and Dad. They do love the children and spend hours playing with them. Mum worked really hard and I had a nice rest. It made me aware of how much I will be taking the children away from them if we go to NY. I was watching S, holding the hose with his Grampy to water the garden and I felt overwhelmingly sad. I must be sure to bring them back to England for LOTS of visits. It's important to keep the love bond very real.

   I still worry about the plane crashing, though I keep telling myself it wont happen. There is still so much I want to share with the children and help them with, I love raising them. I pray that God will keep us safe while we're separated.

  I have bought some new clothes for the trip, so I hope the weather's warm enough to wear them. It will be rather nice to eat meals with no interruptions, to chat in the car without worrying that someone is going to be sick and to have whole conversations with T. Just the two of us. It will feel very strange.

   I am so sure that God wants us to do this move. I hope it is totally confirmed on this trip, that we come back even more sure that we are doing the right thing. It is too big to do unless it is right.